WE LIVE TO FIGHT ANOTHER DAY

I read one article the other day about people who suffer from depression and anxiety and I thought to myself: "Damn, it must to be so hard to go trough life like that. Scared of everything, scared of what future brings or not being able to see any light at the end of a tunnel. Not finding any reason and will to get up in the morning."

I thought how hard sometimes it is to go day by day even for people who doesn't have those obstacles, but for those who live with those obstacles and still manage to survive a day, those people are heroes to me.

And more and more that I thought about it I realize that over the years I manage to develop some defense mechanism that keeps me safe from all the bad energy I guess. 

I realize over the time that not every battle is mine to fight. I learned that sometimes being in peace is more important then being right. 

I learned to choose my battles.

I realize that I need to keep my thoughts positive and if am surrounded by negative people, I know that has nothing to do with me, and that is their fight to fight. I learned not to let anybody bring my spirit down. I trained my mind to calm myself during storms, because storm I can't calm, but I can calm myself. And the storm will pass. It always does.

Then I learned that life is a gift. Every day is a gift. So every morning when I get up, I feel grateful. Every morning I think this is a new day and new opportunity for adventure. For something nice to happen. Life can change for the better before you know it. And every day I tell myself, this day is that day. This day something will change my life for the better. And even if that doesn't happen, I still wake up another morning with same thoughts and one day I will be right. 

I realize that I need to live in a present and not to think about problems that might happen. I don't need to get ahead of the future, because in the present day I create my future. And if some problems come up along the way I believe in myself and I trust that I can survive that just like I survived everything else in my past. 

I learned that I don't need to waste my energy on things I can't change. I just let it go. Am changing what I can and am fighting my fights the best I can day by day but I learned not to complicate things for myself.

And when the night comes, before I go to bed, am at peace because I know that I did the best I could in that day and it is more then I can hope for. When I go to bed, I just imagine stars and my destiny moving and playing on my side. And I fall asleep knowing that I live to fight another day.