AM TOO OLD FOR THIS SHIT!

Friday night, me and my girlfriend, girls night out, night club, loud music, high heels, alcohol and very very bright colored lights. Sounds fun, right?
And it was for like hour and a half. Then half drunk and drunk idiots started to make moves on us, and honestly I wasn't drunk enough to tolerate that, my feet started to protest with pain because I made them stay for that long in freaking high heels and in that moment, everything started to annoy me. And I thought to myself: "Damn, am old!"

I mean am 25 years old and before you start to judge me, just listen. I have been going out since I was 15 years old. Of course, in that time I had to be home by midnight but still. How I was getting older, my freedom become bigger. So all in all there is like 10 years behind me of going out, loud music and drunk idiots and standing for hours in high heels while all colored lights are going in my eyes and honestly for them now I need sunglasses.
So yeah, am a bit old for this and frankly am tired.
Few years ago I wouldn't even notice all this that I notice now, I would just shake it off like Taylor Swift, but in 10 years I really got enough.
I couldn't leave because my friend was having fun and I didn't want to be party breaker so I knew that I need alcohol to survive this night.

So I was drinking not to get drunk, but just enough to become numb at everything around me and I enjoyed few good songs DJ was playing and I was thinking how good it would be that instead of this I went to a dinner, few glasses of wine and maybe afterwords some movie. It would be nice to be in a place where I could actually hear person talking to me.
But hour by hour and the night was over, so because club is near my house, I put my friend in taxi, and I walked barefoot while I was holding my purse in one hand and in other my heels. I need some air and peace.

I came home, showered and I slept like a baby. In the morning hangover kick in and while I was trying not to die I thought to myself: "Am too old for this shit!"
So yeah people, me and Mr Murtaugh from Lethal Weapon are too old for all kind of shits.
So I barely survived work with my hangover and when my friend texted me to go out again, I was like thanks but no thanks. So I bought myself my favorite cake, I put on some movie and I snuggled up in my sweet bed and I had the best Saturday night.

So for all of you guys who are young but kind of the old soul, any movies to recommend? :)

IT'S JUST LIFE, NOTHING PERSONAL

So the other day I was talking to someone about its job and the fact that he is taking everything too personal, when he should think of it like just a job. I was telling him to stop stressing about what his boss is telling him or about how much work he has. He should just do the best he can, and when his work hours are done, he should leave his job and all problem there. Not to bring it home. Because, like I said, it is just business, nothing personal.

Then I was thinking about it and it crossed my mind that the same advice I gave to him, we can all use in life too. Not just for work, but for everything that comes in our way.
I mean think about it. Everything good and bad that happens, it is just life. Bad things happen to us so that we can appreciate them when they are good. Evil wouldn't exist without good, and the other way around. How can we enjoy a good laugh if we don't know how does it feel to be sad and cry? Everything in this world needs balance. Did you ever see a good person that is going trough something bad and you thought to yourself: "That is so not fair, he/she is good person and he/she doesn't deserve it!"
Life is not fair and it is not supposed to be fair. It is messy and complicated, but it is also fun, beautiful and it has its moments.
Good and bad things will happen to all of us from time to time, and that has nothing to do with the fact are we a good person or not. It has nothing to do with what we ever did in life and it has nothing to do with karma and punishment. It is just life. Complicated, beautiful, difficult, messy life that needs balance.

What if we could train ourselves, our brain and our emotions in that way. To be objective, to not take things too personal?
What if every day we would tell ourselves: "It's just life, nothing personal!" and in that way we would day by day change our perspective about it.
Don't you think that it would make life and everything that happens to you much easier?
Once I read that life is 10% of what happens to us and 90% of how we react to it.
It is worth to try it at least, right?
Anyway, if we do the best of what we can do each day, that is good enough.

BLOG-LIFE AT ITS BEST

So this post is all about girls. And everyone who feels like it. :)
I think that there is small number of girls who never have to fight battle with a broken nail. And that looks nasty because we take care of them so long, so much time invested in them, just that one nail can broke and make the rest of them look ugly. And you know that feeling when you should cut them all because of that one broken? Yeah, all effort goes in a toilet.
So I was googling and trying to find some solution about it, and I run into one blog and I have to tell you girls, I love it. That girl is miracle worker, because not only that she found a way to fix that broken nail, she also had lots of other ideas.

http://lifeaib.blogspot.ba/2016/03/how-to-fix-broken-nail-kako-popraviti.html

I was going trough her blog and I was impressed. She explains all easy and she writes her posts on two languages, English and Croatian.
Her name is Alisa, Stuttgard/BIH and she will definitely help you live your life at its best.

http://lifeaib.blogspot.ba/

So while I was trying to find some more helpful tips, I run into post about contouring. I think we all heard about Kim Kardashian and this contouring is her territory. I have to admit, I suck in that. I even don't know what to buy and how to do that, but luckily , this girl in blog knows her magic.

http://lifeaib.blogspot.ba/2016/04/loreal-indefectible-sculpt-contouring.html

So on my next paycheck am getting all Loreal equipment and I will try to do contouring without looking like a clown. Hopefully. :)

And I would like to single out one more post that I loved, because I really needed help with that, and now I found it. Post is about perfect foundation for all skin types. It was always hard for me to figure out what foundation my skin needs and what label product is good for it.

http://lifeaib.blogspot.ba/2016/04/how-to-choose-perfect-foundation.html

So girls if you need a little bit of help with your beauty tips and improving life style, you should check out this blog. It is worth your time. :)

ROLES WE PLAY-THE SHOW MUST GO ON

I was thinking recently about human life. Life in general. It seems to me that life is like one theater play and each and every one of us has its own role in it. With different scripts but the same director-Destiny.
If you think about it for a second, you will see am kind of right. From day one you were born, your role is that you are someones child. If you are not first born, then you get two roles, like I did. You become someones child and someones brother or sister. So from the start parents are teaching you how to play your roles. Respect parents so that you will play good child role. Take care of brother or sister, because when your parents die one day, you will have each other.

 Then you get little bit older, you make friends and there you go. You just got another role. You are someones friend. Then you fall in love, you enter relationship and you find yourself in one completely different role. You are someones girlfriend or boyfriend and I think that one is much more interesting. Because that role wakes up in us feelings that we didn't know even exist before we fall in love.

And while you are growing up and our roles are adding up. You are someones student, latter you are someones work colleague, maybe one day even someones boss. Then if we are lucky, we find that person we want to spend our life with. From someones girlfriend or boyfriend we become someones wife or husband. Latter maybe even someones parents, and that role is the most difficult one, but brings so much pleasure.
But there is not the end, list of roles trough life is huge, like someones son in law, brother in law, mother in law, father-in-law, somebody's grandparents, mistress, lover and so on and so on. List is endless. I just mentioned basic roles.

I guess what I was trying to say, for all you guys there who lost someone, who lost one role in their life, just hold on tight to all other roles you've got. And let them help you and you will live trough it. That is why God and Destiny gave us so much roles to play, to make it easier in life when we lose one. Because like in theater, so in life-The show must go on. Life goes on.
Just hold on folks. :)

WE LIVE TO FIGHT ANOTHER DAY

I read one article the other day about people who suffer from depression and anxiety and I thought to myself: "Damn, it must to be so hard to go trough life like that. Scared of everything, scared of what future brings or not being able to see any light at the end of a tunnel. Not finding any reason and will to get up in the morning."

I thought how hard sometimes it is to go day by day even for people who doesn't have those obstacles, but for those who live with those obstacles and still manage to survive a day, those people are heroes to me.

And more and more that I thought about it I realize that over the years I manage to develop some defense mechanism that keeps me safe from all the bad energy I guess. 

I realize over the time that not every battle is mine to fight. I learned that sometimes being in peace is more important then being right. 

I learned to choose my battles.

I realize that I need to keep my thoughts positive and if am surrounded by negative people, I know that has nothing to do with me, and that is their fight to fight. I learned not to let anybody bring my spirit down. I trained my mind to calm myself during storms, because storm I can't calm, but I can calm myself. And the storm will pass. It always does.

Then I learned that life is a gift. Every day is a gift. So every morning when I get up, I feel grateful. Every morning I think this is a new day and new opportunity for adventure. For something nice to happen. Life can change for the better before you know it. And every day I tell myself, this day is that day. This day something will change my life for the better. And even if that doesn't happen, I still wake up another morning with same thoughts and one day I will be right. 

I realize that I need to live in a present and not to think about problems that might happen. I don't need to get ahead of the future, because in the present day I create my future. And if some problems come up along the way I believe in myself and I trust that I can survive that just like I survived everything else in my past. 

I learned that I don't need to waste my energy on things I can't change. I just let it go. Am changing what I can and am fighting my fights the best I can day by day but I learned not to complicate things for myself.

And when the night comes, before I go to bed, am at peace because I know that I did the best I could in that day and it is more then I can hope for. When I go to bed, I just imagine stars and my destiny moving and playing on my side. And I fall asleep knowing that I live to fight another day.

ROUTINE AND BALANCE

So I was thinking about routine and balance. I was doing yoga and by doing one posture that is called tree where you need to keep your balance basically standing on one leg, million thoughts cross my mind, and some of them just stuck with me.

So when I finished with yoga, I was lying on the floor, breathing deeply and I start to think about how every person in this world has its own routine. Some of us think that routine is boring and that person was me few years ago, but for some reason, now that am little bit older I found it to be very comforting.
I find it very refreshing that I know when I get up, I will go to the bathroom to fresh up, to take some creme on my face. Then I will go and have some lemon water and coffee. After am done with yoga, I make my bed, take some breakfast, get ready for work and I leave the house.
I love my morning routine and in it I feel very comfortable because that is one thing that I can actually control. That mostly depends on me. And even if something happens and I can't do all that in one morning, I can do it tomorrow and still, I found that comforting.
Sometimes our routine changes and that's ok too.
Life is full of changes so who is to say that our routines can't change?
And mostly while you are getting older, they do change.
I certainly don't have same routine now that I had few years ago.
So how we change over the years and how we grow, our routines grow with us.
And that keeps things interesting and little bit less boring I think.
We never know what day can bring to us and everything is insecure, but in our daily routines we can find balance and some safety. Some order even.
While doing yoga, you need to keep balance in many postures, keep breathing and just hang on tight and light at the same time.
And that is life. Doing yoga postures reminded me on life. Reminded me to keep balance. To hold on tight, because even though one posture is difficult, after that one comes another posture and that one is a little bit easier.
Yoga is life. After one hard day, tomorrow can bring you light, less stressful day. So just hold on tight and you will be just fine.

MOVIES SENDS THE WRONG MESSAGE!

So am watching some movie and in it, some guy comes to his ex in the middle of the night, she gets up to open the door, like half sleeping, but she still has perfect hair, make up and even voice for someone who have just awakened.

He enters, starts telling her how he misses her and how he wants her back, and of course, what movie would it be without some sex scene. So they start to kiss, go all over each other, and she of course has lace laundry on her, she is all shaved and ready for sex even though she didn't expect one. And now comes the interesting part. She get the orgasm just in a minute that his soldier went marching in her. And I was like: "Are you f*cking kidding me!??"

It is no miracle that guys have opinion that we are always ready for sex and that they don't have to even try in bed, because it is enough just to "get in" and the job is done. Well, if they see that in a movie, it has to be true, right?
Or maybe they think like, all the girls that i have been sleeping with had orgasms like that.
No way!!!!
Nope, guess again, they faked it. I bet on that!
So for all of you guys who really get all those movies literally, let me tell you a few secrets:

1. NO, WE ARE NOT ALWAYS READY FOR SEX!-So dear guys, do you know how much preparation do we need to have sex with you? We need to shave, everything or at least most of it, it depends on woman I guess. We are not always smooth like in the movies. We have body hair too. On our legs, bikini zone. And we don't shave every day if we don't have to or if we don't expect to have sex, because, lets be real, we have no time for that and we don't want to. Besides, even our skin needs a break from time to time. You don't shave your beard every day if you don't have to, right?

2. NO WE WON'T JUST GET ORGASM WHEN YOU GO IN!-For God sake, do I even need to explain this to you guys? We need foreplay, lots of it. Our body doesn't function like yours do. For you it is enough just to see us naked, but for a girl it is a different story. You can't even enter if we are not "In the mood" enough and that is pure biology. So yeah, you need to make a lot of effort to get as on the edge. Just going in won't do the trick.

3. NO, WE DON'T LOOK PERFECT WHEN WE JUST WAKE UP!-We are humans too, so yeah, when we wake up, our hair is messy, we have no make up so of course we don't look the same as we do when we get decent and go out. And you know what, we don't have to. We can be messy, have our sweatshirt on us instead some sexy nightie, because you know what, we want to be comfortable just as much as you want when we are at home. We are sick of make up, our bra, high heels, and when we close that door we just want to relax so deal with it!

4. IF YOU WAKE US UP, WE WON'T BE HAPPY!-Especially if some idiot ex is knocking on our door and wants to have sex. We need our 8 hours of beauty sleep, so if you mess with that for no good reason but to have sex, get ready to be yelled at.

5. WE ARE NOT PERFECT AND WE DON'T WANT TO BE!-So yeah, we are not perfect, and as a matter of fact, we don't want to be. We have flaws, cellulite and everything else, but you know what, we are looking for someone who knows all our flaws, and still loves us and still thinks that we are perfect and looking beautiful in our big old sweatshirt. We want someone who wants to make love to us even when our legs are not so smooth shaved, and if you can do that for a woman, you will get imperfectly perfect woman just for you, who will love you for who you really are, no matter did you just shaved your beard or not.
We are not perfect, but we sure as hell are worth it!