PLANS VS LIFE

Lats night I analyzed my life so far, decisions I made and roads I didn't took and the ones I thought I would pass through but never manage to get to them, either by destiny or by making other choices.

I wanted to finish Art Academy and I end it up getting Master degree in Journalism and PR. I had boyfriend through my college that I could swear I would spend my life with, we ended up broken and totally stranger to each other. I thought I will have my best friend close to me my whole life, and that we will always drink and gossip people we don't like, even when we are old and grumpy but life had its own plans on that one too, so she moved to Italy. Even though distance doesn't change anything and we are still there for each other, but I do miss her.

So while thinking about that, and all other different roads I went through against all my plans I had for me I realized one thing. It still ended up good and I am still fine.
I didn't finish Art Academy but I am damn good at my job and am good at writing, and most of all I enjoy it so even though it didn't go according to my plans, it ended up pretty good.
Even though I loved that guy I dated in college and we never reached our plans we had for us, family marriage and all that, even though we broke up, I met a guy that is perfect for me. If we never broke up, I would never met the love of my life, I would never knew how it feels when someone gives himself whole to you and doesn't expect nothing in return. I would never felt real love and I would never knew how much am I missing in life. I would just settle for less of a man, and now I know that even then in that relationship, I deserved so much better. And now I got what I really deserved. :)
And regarding my girl, my best friend moved far away from me, but thanks to that we now know how strong our friendship is. That not even distance and busy schedule can make us stop caring and loving each other. We will always be friends, sister and soul mates.

So in the end I realized, that this roads I traveled throughout my life are not worst then the ones I had in my plans and in my mind, they are just different, and in some ways even better.
I learned that even though road is different then you expected, it doesn't mean it is a bad thing.
Just go with a flow breath and trust your journey.
You will be fine. :)

GETTING OLD IS PRIVILEGE!

These days you can't open any magazine or page on that matter that doesn't scream of big ass, plastic surgery, too much exercising, diet and other dumb shit that famous people with too much money do because they are not able to accept the simple fact. They are getting old. And no amount of money can change that. They can maybe prolong that, but years will catch up with them, sooner or latter. Nobody ever escapes from years and eventually death.

I don't know where is the problem? I mean wrinkles mean you laughed, gray hair means you cared and scares means you lived. Am not saying that getting old means you give up, don't wash your hair and just sit in sweatpants. You can still dress up, put on some make up, and look nice. And wear the fu*k out of the wrinkles and your years. Point is you get old gracefully. You accept the fact that you lived long enough to learn, to become more wiser. Do they know how lucky they are? More and more young people die, weather it is from being sick or from accidents. Do they know that being old in this time seems to be a privilege?

I mean if you think about it, we were born with a clean, blank canvas. While years are passing by someone gets freckles, stretch marks, scares and all other evidence that we lived. Isn't that the coolest thing ever? Look at you now, look how far you made it. :)
Life is a miracle, and getting old is a good thing. It is a gift. Life gave you time to enjoy in your family and friend company, Maybe you got a chance to get old together with the love of your life or maybe even to see your children and grandchildren grow up. Isn't that something amazing? Isn't that something we all should look forward instead of being afraid?

Besides, being older doesn't means you can't do all crazy dumb things that you did when you were younger, it just means you will do them in slower way. :)

Wear your age gracefully, don't let age wear you. :)

Remember, it is not how old you look, it is how young you feel.

Good luck to us all. ;)

BE YOUR OWN HERO!

My mom always tells me that from every life of every person on this planet you can write a story. And a damn good one. Best selling books.
Because everyone has its own stories to tell.
Everyone has something that broke them, something that lift them up.
Everyone has its big love, huge crash of the same love.
Everyone has its own fights, its own defeats and victory.
Everyone has their own lessons they learned on a hard way.

So while thinking about that, I was wondering one thing.
What sets us apart from one another?
I mean we all have some stories to tell,
people we love, people that love us,
our fights and ups and downs.
Lost loves, missed chances and loved ones that died.
We all have tears and smiles.
Good and bad days.
We all have dream, hope, faith
and we all search that one thing
that will make us happy and calm.
So if everyone has its own stories to tell,
life that can write a book,
what is that one thing that sets apart one
story author from another?

And then it hit me. I knew the answer.
It is the way they carry their stories.
The way they tell it.
There are some people out there that have been trough so much,
that are tired and lost and are fighting
with their last atom of power
but we can't see that on them.
They still smile, they still have time to make others smile
and you know what? They carry their story and not the
other way around. They took everything that happen to them,
accept it and let it make them wiser and stronger.
And you will never hear that author of that life story
telling it in a way that he/she will put him/herself in a victim position.
Because you know what, he/she is not a victim.
Those people are fighters and survivors.
They are heroes of their own story.

So that is the difference.
So one day when you tell your story,
don't forget that you can choose what are
you going to be, hero or victim.
Is your story of life going to be full
of adventures and used chances,
or full of fear and regret.
It is up to all of you to decide,
because you know what.
You are your writer and author
of your own story and your life.
Every day write a good chapter of your book.

IT'S JUST LIFE, NOTHING PERSONAL

So the other day I was talking to someone about its job and the fact that he is taking everything too personal, when he should think of it like just a job. I was telling him to stop stressing about what his boss is telling him or about how much work he has. He should just do the best he can, and when his work hours are done, he should leave his job and all problem there. Not to bring it home. Because, like I said, it is just business, nothing personal.

Then I was thinking about it and it crossed my mind that the same advice I gave to him, we can all use in life too. Not just for work, but for everything that comes in our way.
I mean think about it. Everything good and bad that happens, it is just life. Bad things happen to us so that we can appreciate them when they are good. Evil wouldn't exist without good, and the other way around. How can we enjoy a good laugh if we don't know how does it feel to be sad and cry? Everything in this world needs balance. Did you ever see a good person that is going trough something bad and you thought to yourself: "That is so not fair, he/she is good person and he/she doesn't deserve it!"
Life is not fair and it is not supposed to be fair. It is messy and complicated, but it is also fun, beautiful and it has its moments.
Good and bad things will happen to all of us from time to time, and that has nothing to do with the fact are we a good person or not. It has nothing to do with what we ever did in life and it has nothing to do with karma and punishment. It is just life. Complicated, beautiful, difficult, messy life that needs balance.

What if we could train ourselves, our brain and our emotions in that way. To be objective, to not take things too personal?
What if every day we would tell ourselves: "It's just life, nothing personal!" and in that way we would day by day change our perspective about it.
Don't you think that it would make life and everything that happens to you much easier?
Once I read that life is 10% of what happens to us and 90% of how we react to it.
It is worth to try it at least, right?
Anyway, if we do the best of what we can do each day, that is good enough.

ROLES WE PLAY-THE SHOW MUST GO ON

I was thinking recently about human life. Life in general. It seems to me that life is like one theater play and each and every one of us has its own role in it. With different scripts but the same director-Destiny.
If you think about it for a second, you will see am kind of right. From day one you were born, your role is that you are someones child. If you are not first born, then you get two roles, like I did. You become someones child and someones brother or sister. So from the start parents are teaching you how to play your roles. Respect parents so that you will play good child role. Take care of brother or sister, because when your parents die one day, you will have each other.

 Then you get little bit older, you make friends and there you go. You just got another role. You are someones friend. Then you fall in love, you enter relationship and you find yourself in one completely different role. You are someones girlfriend or boyfriend and I think that one is much more interesting. Because that role wakes up in us feelings that we didn't know even exist before we fall in love.

And while you are growing up and our roles are adding up. You are someones student, latter you are someones work colleague, maybe one day even someones boss. Then if we are lucky, we find that person we want to spend our life with. From someones girlfriend or boyfriend we become someones wife or husband. Latter maybe even someones parents, and that role is the most difficult one, but brings so much pleasure.
But there is not the end, list of roles trough life is huge, like someones son in law, brother in law, mother in law, father-in-law, somebody's grandparents, mistress, lover and so on and so on. List is endless. I just mentioned basic roles.

I guess what I was trying to say, for all you guys there who lost someone, who lost one role in their life, just hold on tight to all other roles you've got. And let them help you and you will live trough it. That is why God and Destiny gave us so much roles to play, to make it easier in life when we lose one. Because like in theater, so in life-The show must go on. Life goes on.
Just hold on folks. :)

ROUTINE AND BALANCE

So I was thinking about routine and balance. I was doing yoga and by doing one posture that is called tree where you need to keep your balance basically standing on one leg, million thoughts cross my mind, and some of them just stuck with me.

So when I finished with yoga, I was lying on the floor, breathing deeply and I start to think about how every person in this world has its own routine. Some of us think that routine is boring and that person was me few years ago, but for some reason, now that am little bit older I found it to be very comforting.
I find it very refreshing that I know when I get up, I will go to the bathroom to fresh up, to take some creme on my face. Then I will go and have some lemon water and coffee. After am done with yoga, I make my bed, take some breakfast, get ready for work and I leave the house.
I love my morning routine and in it I feel very comfortable because that is one thing that I can actually control. That mostly depends on me. And even if something happens and I can't do all that in one morning, I can do it tomorrow and still, I found that comforting.
Sometimes our routine changes and that's ok too.
Life is full of changes so who is to say that our routines can't change?
And mostly while you are getting older, they do change.
I certainly don't have same routine now that I had few years ago.
So how we change over the years and how we grow, our routines grow with us.
And that keeps things interesting and little bit less boring I think.
We never know what day can bring to us and everything is insecure, but in our daily routines we can find balance and some safety. Some order even.
While doing yoga, you need to keep balance in many postures, keep breathing and just hang on tight and light at the same time.
And that is life. Doing yoga postures reminded me on life. Reminded me to keep balance. To hold on tight, because even though one posture is difficult, after that one comes another posture and that one is a little bit easier.
Yoga is life. After one hard day, tomorrow can bring you light, less stressful day. So just hold on tight and you will be just fine.

WHAT IF??

I was thinking about life in general. About choices we make every day. About paths we never took, and the ones we do choose. What makes us go left instead of the right? What makes us go back instead of moving forward or the other way around?
I was thinking about all those plans we make and never lived to see them becoming reality, about the things we didn't think it is possible to happen, but they happened anyway.
I heard from someone that every choice that we make, even small one like where will we go to take our coffee, every single choice we make in day leads us to our destiny.
So by that definition, every mistake is really not a mistake. It is just some lesson we need to learn so that we can go one step forward. I know that life is full of ups and downs, but if every one of us has its own path and destiny, so in that sense we can't make a mistake, can we?
We can't make wrong choice, because they are no wrong choices. We call it mistake and wrong decision because it didn't worked out like we wanted it to work.

But just because it didn't go as we wanted it doesn't mean it didn't turn out exactly like it was supposed to.
I know it is in a human nature to worry. To think like five steps ahead, but what if we would just live in the moment? Because in this moment right now, we make our future.
Every decision we make this day, in these moments will shape our future and shape us as a person.
What if we don't have to know what will happen five mounts from now or even tomorrow?
What if we don't have to know where will we be, or what will we be doing or with whom?
What if all we have is right here and right now? This moment. This day. Because we never know what can happen tomorrow, and we don't have to. Because tomorrow will take care of itself when time comes.
What if we would just breath, be in this moment and take a leap of faith?
What if we would just trust our journey even thought we sometimes don't understand it?
What if we would just trust ourselves? That we made it trough so far, and we can make it trough
what ever is coming next.
What if we would just stop worrying about things that didn't even happen yet?
What if we would just let our life happen to us?