PLANS VS LIFE

Lats night I analyzed my life so far, decisions I made and roads I didn't took and the ones I thought I would pass through but never manage to get to them, either by destiny or by making other choices.

I wanted to finish Art Academy and I end it up getting Master degree in Journalism and PR. I had boyfriend through my college that I could swear I would spend my life with, we ended up broken and totally stranger to each other. I thought I will have my best friend close to me my whole life, and that we will always drink and gossip people we don't like, even when we are old and grumpy but life had its own plans on that one too, so she moved to Italy. Even though distance doesn't change anything and we are still there for each other, but I do miss her.

So while thinking about that, and all other different roads I went through against all my plans I had for me I realized one thing. It still ended up good and I am still fine.
I didn't finish Art Academy but I am damn good at my job and am good at writing, and most of all I enjoy it so even though it didn't go according to my plans, it ended up pretty good.
Even though I loved that guy I dated in college and we never reached our plans we had for us, family marriage and all that, even though we broke up, I met a guy that is perfect for me. If we never broke up, I would never met the love of my life, I would never knew how it feels when someone gives himself whole to you and doesn't expect nothing in return. I would never felt real love and I would never knew how much am I missing in life. I would just settle for less of a man, and now I know that even then in that relationship, I deserved so much better. And now I got what I really deserved. :)
And regarding my girl, my best friend moved far away from me, but thanks to that we now know how strong our friendship is. That not even distance and busy schedule can make us stop caring and loving each other. We will always be friends, sister and soul mates.

So in the end I realized, that this roads I traveled throughout my life are not worst then the ones I had in my plans and in my mind, they are just different, and in some ways even better.
I learned that even though road is different then you expected, it doesn't mean it is a bad thing.
Just go with a flow breath and trust your journey.
You will be fine. :)

WHAT IF??

I was thinking about life in general. About choices we make every day. About paths we never took, and the ones we do choose. What makes us go left instead of the right? What makes us go back instead of moving forward or the other way around?
I was thinking about all those plans we make and never lived to see them becoming reality, about the things we didn't think it is possible to happen, but they happened anyway.
I heard from someone that every choice that we make, even small one like where will we go to take our coffee, every single choice we make in day leads us to our destiny.
So by that definition, every mistake is really not a mistake. It is just some lesson we need to learn so that we can go one step forward. I know that life is full of ups and downs, but if every one of us has its own path and destiny, so in that sense we can't make a mistake, can we?
We can't make wrong choice, because they are no wrong choices. We call it mistake and wrong decision because it didn't worked out like we wanted it to work.

But just because it didn't go as we wanted it doesn't mean it didn't turn out exactly like it was supposed to.
I know it is in a human nature to worry. To think like five steps ahead, but what if we would just live in the moment? Because in this moment right now, we make our future.
Every decision we make this day, in these moments will shape our future and shape us as a person.
What if we don't have to know what will happen five mounts from now or even tomorrow?
What if we don't have to know where will we be, or what will we be doing or with whom?
What if all we have is right here and right now? This moment. This day. Because we never know what can happen tomorrow, and we don't have to. Because tomorrow will take care of itself when time comes.
What if we would just breath, be in this moment and take a leap of faith?
What if we would just trust our journey even thought we sometimes don't understand it?
What if we would just trust ourselves? That we made it trough so far, and we can make it trough
what ever is coming next.
What if we would just stop worrying about things that didn't even happen yet?
What if we would just let our life happen to us?