WE LIVE TO FIGHT ANOTHER DAY

I read one article the other day about people who suffer from depression and anxiety and I thought to myself: "Damn, it must to be so hard to go trough life like that. Scared of everything, scared of what future brings or not being able to see any light at the end of a tunnel. Not finding any reason and will to get up in the morning."

I thought how hard sometimes it is to go day by day even for people who doesn't have those obstacles, but for those who live with those obstacles and still manage to survive a day, those people are heroes to me.

And more and more that I thought about it I realize that over the years I manage to develop some defense mechanism that keeps me safe from all the bad energy I guess. 

I realize over the time that not every battle is mine to fight. I learned that sometimes being in peace is more important then being right. 

I learned to choose my battles.

I realize that I need to keep my thoughts positive and if am surrounded by negative people, I know that has nothing to do with me, and that is their fight to fight. I learned not to let anybody bring my spirit down. I trained my mind to calm myself during storms, because storm I can't calm, but I can calm myself. And the storm will pass. It always does.

Then I learned that life is a gift. Every day is a gift. So every morning when I get up, I feel grateful. Every morning I think this is a new day and new opportunity for adventure. For something nice to happen. Life can change for the better before you know it. And every day I tell myself, this day is that day. This day something will change my life for the better. And even if that doesn't happen, I still wake up another morning with same thoughts and one day I will be right. 

I realize that I need to live in a present and not to think about problems that might happen. I don't need to get ahead of the future, because in the present day I create my future. And if some problems come up along the way I believe in myself and I trust that I can survive that just like I survived everything else in my past. 

I learned that I don't need to waste my energy on things I can't change. I just let it go. Am changing what I can and am fighting my fights the best I can day by day but I learned not to complicate things for myself.

And when the night comes, before I go to bed, am at peace because I know that I did the best I could in that day and it is more then I can hope for. When I go to bed, I just imagine stars and my destiny moving and playing on my side. And I fall asleep knowing that I live to fight another day.

ROUTINE AND BALANCE

So I was thinking about routine and balance. I was doing yoga and by doing one posture that is called tree where you need to keep your balance basically standing on one leg, million thoughts cross my mind, and some of them just stuck with me.

So when I finished with yoga, I was lying on the floor, breathing deeply and I start to think about how every person in this world has its own routine. Some of us think that routine is boring and that person was me few years ago, but for some reason, now that am little bit older I found it to be very comforting.
I find it very refreshing that I know when I get up, I will go to the bathroom to fresh up, to take some creme on my face. Then I will go and have some lemon water and coffee. After am done with yoga, I make my bed, take some breakfast, get ready for work and I leave the house.
I love my morning routine and in it I feel very comfortable because that is one thing that I can actually control. That mostly depends on me. And even if something happens and I can't do all that in one morning, I can do it tomorrow and still, I found that comforting.
Sometimes our routine changes and that's ok too.
Life is full of changes so who is to say that our routines can't change?
And mostly while you are getting older, they do change.
I certainly don't have same routine now that I had few years ago.
So how we change over the years and how we grow, our routines grow with us.
And that keeps things interesting and little bit less boring I think.
We never know what day can bring to us and everything is insecure, but in our daily routines we can find balance and some safety. Some order even.
While doing yoga, you need to keep balance in many postures, keep breathing and just hang on tight and light at the same time.
And that is life. Doing yoga postures reminded me on life. Reminded me to keep balance. To hold on tight, because even though one posture is difficult, after that one comes another posture and that one is a little bit easier.
Yoga is life. After one hard day, tomorrow can bring you light, less stressful day. So just hold on tight and you will be just fine.

MOVIES SENDS THE WRONG MESSAGE!

So am watching some movie and in it, some guy comes to his ex in the middle of the night, she gets up to open the door, like half sleeping, but she still has perfect hair, make up and even voice for someone who have just awakened.

He enters, starts telling her how he misses her and how he wants her back, and of course, what movie would it be without some sex scene. So they start to kiss, go all over each other, and she of course has lace laundry on her, she is all shaved and ready for sex even though she didn't expect one. And now comes the interesting part. She get the orgasm just in a minute that his soldier went marching in her. And I was like: "Are you f*cking kidding me!??"

It is no miracle that guys have opinion that we are always ready for sex and that they don't have to even try in bed, because it is enough just to "get in" and the job is done. Well, if they see that in a movie, it has to be true, right?
Or maybe they think like, all the girls that i have been sleeping with had orgasms like that.
No way!!!!
Nope, guess again, they faked it. I bet on that!
So for all of you guys who really get all those movies literally, let me tell you a few secrets:

1. NO, WE ARE NOT ALWAYS READY FOR SEX!-So dear guys, do you know how much preparation do we need to have sex with you? We need to shave, everything or at least most of it, it depends on woman I guess. We are not always smooth like in the movies. We have body hair too. On our legs, bikini zone. And we don't shave every day if we don't have to or if we don't expect to have sex, because, lets be real, we have no time for that and we don't want to. Besides, even our skin needs a break from time to time. You don't shave your beard every day if you don't have to, right?

2. NO WE WON'T JUST GET ORGASM WHEN YOU GO IN!-For God sake, do I even need to explain this to you guys? We need foreplay, lots of it. Our body doesn't function like yours do. For you it is enough just to see us naked, but for a girl it is a different story. You can't even enter if we are not "In the mood" enough and that is pure biology. So yeah, you need to make a lot of effort to get as on the edge. Just going in won't do the trick.

3. NO, WE DON'T LOOK PERFECT WHEN WE JUST WAKE UP!-We are humans too, so yeah, when we wake up, our hair is messy, we have no make up so of course we don't look the same as we do when we get decent and go out. And you know what, we don't have to. We can be messy, have our sweatshirt on us instead some sexy nightie, because you know what, we want to be comfortable just as much as you want when we are at home. We are sick of make up, our bra, high heels, and when we close that door we just want to relax so deal with it!

4. IF YOU WAKE US UP, WE WON'T BE HAPPY!-Especially if some idiot ex is knocking on our door and wants to have sex. We need our 8 hours of beauty sleep, so if you mess with that for no good reason but to have sex, get ready to be yelled at.

5. WE ARE NOT PERFECT AND WE DON'T WANT TO BE!-So yeah, we are not perfect, and as a matter of fact, we don't want to be. We have flaws, cellulite and everything else, but you know what, we are looking for someone who knows all our flaws, and still loves us and still thinks that we are perfect and looking beautiful in our big old sweatshirt. We want someone who wants to make love to us even when our legs are not so smooth shaved, and if you can do that for a woman, you will get imperfectly perfect woman just for you, who will love you for who you really are, no matter did you just shaved your beard or not.
We are not perfect, but we sure as hell are worth it!