LOVE IS NOT JUST A WORD

So it took me 26 years, lots of tears, broken dreams, new beginnings and few times a broken heart, but now I finally figured it out. I was always questioning myself what did I do wrong or maybe I could have done things differently and maybe if I did, things would worked out.
Lots of time wasted on blaming myself for all the wrong persons I let into my life and into my heart.
It took me to kiss lots of frogs to finally meet my prince and after all that time, now I finally know what love is.

Love is his "How are you? Did you sleep good? Do you need anything? Did you eat? How was your day? Text me when you come home safe."
Love is when he brings you lunch home because he knows you hate to cook. Love is when he kiss you in a forehead, when he gets you lots of chocolate on your period days. Love is when he makes you soup and tea when you are sick. Love is when he lets you watch movie you want even though on TV is his favorite show. Love is when he learns how to understand words you don't even say. Love is feeling not a word. Love is when he makes everything in his power to make you feel safe and loved without even saying those words "I love you".
And if he would never say them, you know that he loves you, because love is not just a word. Love is the way he is acting towards you. Anyone can say "I love you" and not meant it. But to show you his love every days in small ways, that can't do someone who doesn't feel love towards you.

I would repeat every mistake I did, go trough all pain, tears and heartbreak again if that would mean my journey will take me to him again. Because, he is worth it. 

And I can never thank him enough for showing me the way. For teaching me what true love really looks like. 

I know am sometimes hard to handle, that I have walls build around me but he knows that. And he is knocking them down one by one with his love and patience. 

That my people, is what love is all about.  :)

PLANS VS LIFE

Lats night I analyzed my life so far, decisions I made and roads I didn't took and the ones I thought I would pass through but never manage to get to them, either by destiny or by making other choices.

I wanted to finish Art Academy and I end it up getting Master degree in Journalism and PR. I had boyfriend through my college that I could swear I would spend my life with, we ended up broken and totally stranger to each other. I thought I will have my best friend close to me my whole life, and that we will always drink and gossip people we don't like, even when we are old and grumpy but life had its own plans on that one too, so she moved to Italy. Even though distance doesn't change anything and we are still there for each other, but I do miss her.

So while thinking about that, and all other different roads I went through against all my plans I had for me I realized one thing. It still ended up good and I am still fine.
I didn't finish Art Academy but I am damn good at my job and am good at writing, and most of all I enjoy it so even though it didn't go according to my plans, it ended up pretty good.
Even though I loved that guy I dated in college and we never reached our plans we had for us, family marriage and all that, even though we broke up, I met a guy that is perfect for me. If we never broke up, I would never met the love of my life, I would never knew how it feels when someone gives himself whole to you and doesn't expect nothing in return. I would never felt real love and I would never knew how much am I missing in life. I would just settle for less of a man, and now I know that even then in that relationship, I deserved so much better. And now I got what I really deserved. :)
And regarding my girl, my best friend moved far away from me, but thanks to that we now know how strong our friendship is. That not even distance and busy schedule can make us stop caring and loving each other. We will always be friends, sister and soul mates.

So in the end I realized, that this roads I traveled throughout my life are not worst then the ones I had in my plans and in my mind, they are just different, and in some ways even better.
I learned that even though road is different then you expected, it doesn't mean it is a bad thing.
Just go with a flow breath and trust your journey.
You will be fine. :)